I’m the Mama

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This Mother’s Day was my first baby’s-out-of-my-belly Mother’s Day. I’ve been trying to formulate my thoughts over the past two years from the time I first found out I was pregnant. I can say that motherhood has changed me. I don’t know that I am better or kinder or more patient. My anxieties haven’t seemed to lessen much. I am still the flawed person I was before this remarkable change.

The greatest part of being a mother is my boy. I hold on to that when the fears crowd my mind. I need it when I feel at a loss for the answers just out of reach. I can choose to care for my child using option A over option B and then switch to option B when option A only worked the first time but never after that and I am still his mother.

As my boy enters more and more new phases in his life, I am still his mother. When I feel so inadequate and I make mistake after mistake, I am still his mother. Through the well meaning voices that abound and offer advice and sweet counsel, I decide what will work for me because I am his mother. What a marvel to be this boy’s mother. What a gift.

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2 thoughts on “I’m the Mama

  1. Bad Gifter says:

    Your boy is in excellent hands. I have all the faith in the world in your capacity and wisdom. You aren’t perfect, but there is not one single decision of import in his life that will be passed over without prayer, meditation, and a whole boat-load of soul searching.

    You have *so* got this. Happy Mother’s Day.

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